Yesterday was the homecoming services for my Grandma, “Big Red”. I actually was able to go in while the casket was open. It’s a big deal for me; I wasn’t able to do that with my Dad. I just couldn’t make myself do that. I don’t know for some people it’s a way of closure, for me not so much I guess. Also everyone else was going to be going in, even my sister so I decided I could do it. Halfway up the aisle I broke down in tears, I just couldn’t help myself. Thankfully my brother was willing to give me his shoulder so he walked down with me. It was the first dead body that I have ever seen and I didn’t like it all. I don’t think she looked like my Grandma at all, but I guess that’s okay. I do believe that her spirit what made her my Grandma, is already in heaven. My Dad’s mom was there with my Grandfather and Aunt, since I was able to sit my Mom; I went and sat with her to get some motherly love. I’m just glad the day is over and done with.
I came back kind of early, I just needed to be in my own home. Plus I didn’t know if the AT&T people were going to come and set up my Internet today. The original receipt I got had them slated to come today, however the emails I got afterwards (there were like 5 of them) had them coming Monday. I would like them to come today simply because I need to do homework and the Internet is being stupid. So I can only hope they come today but I there’s a bigger chance that they are coming Monday. Just as long as it’s before 4pm.
Today I need to clean my place. I sort of cleaned before I left but not really. I need to wash clothes, vacuum, sweep and mop, clean off the dinning room table, clean my stove and clean off my desk. I’m thinking about changing the living room set up. I’m not sure. I also have some fall window stickies I need to put up.
I made a cake this morning because I wanted too…and also I found another cake decorator thingy I want to try out. Maybe I’ll take pictures and post them.
Bianco Jade